As excited as I was to begin this practice, it was that much harder to have to end it.
I would like to offer you recap of my Bound Lotus experience because I want others to know
1) this kriya is very challenging (not that this point needs any more emphasis)
2) sometimes we have to accept a defeat and move on
3) there is NOTHING wrong in not being ready or able to practice yoga in a certain way.
Yogi Bhajan and other great yogis gave us so many kriyas, meditations, breathing technics that even the most inflexible or injured person can uplift their spirit. There are so many choices its like being in a big supermarket where a person with any diet or shape can find great foods to nourish his/hers body. There is nothing wrong with not being able to digest nuts even though people around you can’t stop praising those macadamias.
When I got my bound lotus manual and saw all these warm ups I needed to do, I was excited hoped by the end of this sadhana challenge I’ll be really flexible. Yes my initial thinking was “I’ll be like those ‘real’ rubber yogis from the magazines” – how naive of me.
Here is what really happened:
Started on November 9th
Day 3
I’ve been doing my sadhana in the evening the whole week but can’t wait to start my morning routine back on.
I already see a big difference in my flexibility. Although I need to stretch more before the practice.
Day 4
Left leg has increased in flexibility. Bound lotus doesn’t hurt. I’m getting more and more flexible in warm ups as well, if I’ll continue everyday like that I’ll be like a rubber.
Mental part.
Mind is not in meditative state at all. Even though I’m trying to focus at the third eye point I feel like the thoughts want to take me everywhere just not to stay in the pose. Weird. But at the end, when I rise up, I feel so smitten like as if I came back from a trip. Being a little spaced out and relaxed at the same time.
Day 6
Only? I feel like I was practicing this for a long time already… Anyway today I felt so stiff my lower back didn’t want to bend forward. I did my sadhana right after I woke up so maybe that played a big part in feeling stiff.
Left leg was giving me discomfort but after more stretching I was able to bend forward.
Mental
A lot of thoughts today. I try to stop them but my body always brings me back to ‘ooh my hips are sooo tight’, ‘I can’t focus my eyes’ ‘the towel is pushing my forehead…
Day 7
I practiced in evening when I’m more flexible.
LL – One pillow under knee
– two towels under my head
RL – just two towels for my forehead
Mental –
For a while on left side I got into this state where I felt like I was linked with yogis in ancient India. I saw myself there under the tree, being very humble to be part of this nature. I didn’t feel like getting up when the time was up
Then on right side the fidgeting started. My nose was itchy, all sort of things were bothering me but I prevailed.
It feels nice to feel my leg touching my chest.
I keep thinking how nice it must be to be able to be able to grasp my toes. …Oh the longing for my toes…
I would like to continue until I can do that.
Problem
The tendons in my left leg feels too stretched. Like I pulled it little too hard.
Day 10
Practiced after teaching yoga class.
Little bit worried about my left knee I feel something funny there.
Solution to not straining it is to put more pillows under my head as oppose to my knee.
Day 11
Evening practice after I hung out at my friend Adela’s place.
My left knee started to bother. I have to go back to keeping left leg on the floor in easy pose as oppose to resting on the right ankle.
Day 12
Great class with Mahan Kirin through spirit voyage.
She seems pretty strict but also very helpful.
I stretched pretty good and I learned how to do full lotus with support for ankles.
Great
Day 13
Squeezed the practice at the end of the day.
Have to try to do it inthe morning even thought I do feel more stiff.
Day 14
I’m getting better in estimating the right position I should be in.
Feels like my arms are getting longer.
But otherwise no progress in flexibility which is fine.
Have to practice in the morning. Again today I slept and ended up practicing in the evening. Not good.
Day 15
Finally I forced myself to wake up and do bound lotus in the morning.
What a great experience. Sun was shining temperature was perfect and my back was super stiff 😦
Now I feel great
My knees got comfortable.
Day 17
Already?
I stretched this morning during So Purkh. I guess I did the good job because. I used only two pillows under head for my left leg.
Pain in my knees is all gone and I just feel slight stretching in hip area and lower back.
I love this kriya. Yes it’s true your mind doesn’t want to stay down in the position but on the other hand I do it without much struggle.
Day 19
I almost couldn’t do this kriya today. My lower back is hurting me so much it’s hard to bend over. I had to promp myself with so many pillows and it still hurts. It was a funny pain not exactly sure where it comes from. Two minutes before left side was over I had to straighten myself up. The same happened on the other side even though I used much more pillows.
What is going on?
Am I hurting myself?
Today we (me and Tim) got a new mattress. I hope my lower back pain comes from the old mattress. So I will see if new one is gonna help.
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